Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Tears.Tremor.Tagged

Two days ago, I received an e-mail from Eve which made me very sad. She has been diagnosed of having lupus, an autoimmune (means the immune system fights the body itself instead of protecting it) disease in which the immune system becomes hyperactive and attacks normal tissues. Last August, her mother passed away, due to lupus. So, it could be hereditary in Eve's case. A few years ago, a young cousin of mine (in her 20's) also passed on due to this illness. Up until now, there is no cure for lupus, only treatment. But still.....

Nope, I wasn't in tears when I received Eve's e-mail. Instead, I think I was in denial for half a day. I was in a daze. I was confused about my own emotions. I wasn't sure if I was was sad, upset or angry. My spirits were dampened... The tears only came in the evening as I was talking to my mom over the phone about Eve... I didn't know what happened then... That was two days ago, 5th March.

Yesterday, 6th March, a few minutes before noon, I suddenly felt that my chair was shaking. I looked at the arm-rest, gosh, it was shaking too! But when I tried to see if my colleague felt what I felt, she didn't turn to me at all, she was working very hard on the computer. A lot of things came to mind at that time, and right after that, I felt giddy. So, I asked her if she felt anything. She said she did. Alamak... so, I wasn't hallucinating or dreaming. I even thought that maybe there was a big lorry/trailer passing by the building.

The tremor was due to an earthquake that hit Sumatra. And I felt the tremor again a few minutes before 2pm. This time, I knew it wasn't X-Files related...

And the finale... You know, for the past few days, everyday also I kena tagged! Gosh... I told a few of them that I think I'm gonna be spending my "blogging life" answering tags! I think I have about 5-6 tags to do! Very FKK! BUT, I suppose tagging is loving... so, to reciprocate, I'll answer the tags.

kyh & monk[t]icon wanted to see how my Desktop looks like. Nah...

My desktop for the past 3 years.
I like 'convenience', hence the clutter on my desktop.

BUT... a new one is coming soon...
I'll show off to you one fine day...

*fingers & toes crossed*

44 comments:

Simple American said...

Oh gosh. They think my BIL has lupus. Still testing lah. Kinda scarey as he has always been such a healthy guy.

I like the map desktop. I can see Texas. :)

L B said...

So, that was the lupus you were twittering about. Sorry about Eve..
And it wasn't my snoring that caused the tremors..
Nor were my *arts that almost conjured up the hurricane..
White.. white.. white.. you need a white desktop.. ok, not white, but pale aqua.. and widescreen...
*crossing klangs for you*

L B said...

I've just noticed again...
Your Birthday angel and your Christmas angel..
you've put on weight!

L B said...

The one time I've felt a strong tremor at work in Italy here, I thought I was swaying on a boat at sea.. It wasn't frightening, it was more astonishment.. I later learnt a lot of people were killed in a place very far away in Italy, by that same tremor..

angel said...

Dear Sir SA,...
You know, it IS scary... Eve wrote to me today saying that she thought she led a healthy life, no smoking, no drinking, no coffee, balanced diet etc BUT life has been stressful to her the past few years... her 'partner' was diagnosed as having some cancer of the nose a couple of years back but he's looking fine now.. and then her mother... and now her ownself... I feel so helpless for not being able to do anything for her... oh, she's in NY by the way...

What? U can see Texas? I actually looked at my desktop too haha.. yup, Texas is here...

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Dear L B,...
Yup, that's the lupus I Twittered about...

I think your snoring will cause tsunami...not tremors... your tossing & turning in bed could cause tremors though...

Pale aqua? Hmmm... is that the default karer?
*stares at the Crossing Klangs*
*amazed*

Hahaha!!! I not only put on weight, I grew shorter too! You must have left your specs on your kepala when you did the Christmas Angel! HHHHH!

You know, it's really amazing how a slight tremor could cause giddiness! I don't understand why! But I'm very amazed...

Tremor + Giddiness = Earthquake
New equation...

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*waits for Brad*

kyh said...

i'm here! i'm here! *waves back to angie*

and a kiss...

kyh said...

first time heard of lupus. thought it's a BM word luput lol!!! (no wonder i hate medic and biology so much)

ah so sad for ur fren. :(

wow! a map desktop! whee~

so where do u wanna go? with Brad isit? ;)

i luv maps, countries, geography, atlas. u name it.

aiya my angie will say her Brad damn boring wan! :(

kyh said...

and oso, why i cant feel any tremors one??? not once b4!!! that tsunami tremor i oso din feel anything... aiya why so si bak... or my ass too heavy cannot feel anything? :(

this is one in a lifetime experience... must try... must try....

may said...

so sorry to hear about your friend Eve. I hope the treatments would help her lead a longer, healthy life. my well wishes to her, and to you to stay strong, yea?

*hugs for you... hugs for Eve... hugs for whoever needs a hug*

*and there are tremours in my heart, which caused it to break*

Winn said...

sory to hear abt ur fren..i feel sorry for her.

ppl say, in life u have to be prepared for éverything'.
some ppl didnt have time to get ready, as for some, situations force them to ..

life is in fact a lonely journey eh? i come alone and i have to leave alone..

aiya wat am i talking. u got me thinking la gal,
eh wang lee hom was so leng chai! he did well in his concert. but i have got a lot to complain!!! grr..*fireworks in me* wkend i blog abt it ok. now i very bz..stress:(!!!! grrr *ribena berry*

Winn said...

aiya i stil feel berry bad for ur fren.


u know wat. i always wish hor when i have to 'leave' for good that time, i hope i have enough time to get prepared. go home and pack/throw away unused stuff, burn away all my 'secret',read up on 'whats next'(for me) , get some advise , pray a little, make my bed, see my beloved ones, talk to everyone on the phone, seek forgiveness, help ppl in need, donate my belongings, finished my backlogs, get liucas a new owner,tell u i love u, dun leave any shit/excess baggage behind, blog my last, etc etc......

yes it got nothing to do with food, and we wonder why therss 'last meal'.

aiya so many things to do, one day also canot finish la. so? start doing it now?
but i got no time wor...

see, excuses
i always scared one day something will hit my head n i die on the spot, leaving me no time to do any preparation.

angel, life! when u come u owe no one but when u leaves u are stil in debt..

angel wat am i talking. so sad la. ai..ok la i go to work already. life goes on. sigh.

Pink Cotton said...

WAHH

how come ur colleague din panic or sth when she felt the tremors??!?!?

if me hoh...i will jump out from my seat and run to the nearest exit and drive home :)

Wennnn said...

Sad to hear about Eve.. Wewll ask her take it easy lor... Is not easy but then life have to go on.... Earthquake again???? Scary....

mistipurple said...

life is like that lah. that's why i always feel life very painful. you leave the ones you love, and the ones you love leave you. it is the natural process of things. someone told me, you bring joy/love to people during the journey and vice versa and that makes it worthwhile. still.... i find it ... painful..

you take care ya?
and, the earthquake ah! i oso giddy lah. DYK when i saw your twitter after i posted, i was so relieved!! because that time i was checking the US Earthquake Centre and it wasn't out yet!

Huei said...

So sorry about your friend. Hope she gets well soon!

sengkor said...

i din feel any tremor.. hope eve will be well again..

i wonder if i can finish what i wanted to do before i leave this world..

vegemaster said...

Hmm..everyone seems to be feeling the tremor but not me...Must have been busy blogging...XD

Anyway, dont feel too sad over Eve ... I'm sure everything happens for a reason~ Thats my belief..~

Monk[+]Icon said...

Sorry to hear about Eve, God bless. I oso felt the tremor earlier yesterday...though ape bende...see news really got earthquake...

Wa! ur desktop oso banyak icon oh..gero~

cp1 said...

sorry to hear about yor fren .. many things that we wish in life will not work or go our way .. but let us just pray that all those bad things that comes to our life is a blessing in disguise from god to test us .. *BIG HUG*

me in bangsar didnt know till i heard the news last night on TV3 .. hope you feeling much much better today angel dearie ..

*hug angell with a warm cotton-ish blanket*

moz monster said...

*prays for angeliu's friend*

*prays for earthquake victims*

*thank the one i pray to i'm happy, healthy and loved*

Anonymous said...

quite a chronicle u hv here.

these diseases suck dont they?

tremor in KL? there isn't any here tho..lol.

tags which were circulated lately were of such craps, but yes, they indeed hv a certain amount of love, juz a certain amouont.

phom-lor

nyonyapenang said...

so sorrry to hear about Eve. I hope the treatment works and I wish her well.
You have a nice day. :)

JL said...

sorry to hear about Eve... hope she's doing well :)

you also dun nangis la... make us want to cry too.. cheer up OK. You must now give her your angelic support. Definitely she'll feel better :)

Have nice day Angel! ^_^

(i'm in top 30 wor.. not bad eh.. tsk tsk tsk)

Chen said...

Sorry to hear about Eve,
Sad to say, lotsa things are beyond our control..
That's life :(
whatever it is, dun give up & never give up..

pssss.. I didnt feel the tremor & quake too

angel said...

Dear kyh,...
*gives the Sweetest Smile*
*and a kiss, of course*

Well, we learn new things e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y... Hey, I hate Biology too!
*high 5*

U love maps, huh?
*noted*

With Brad, I'm willing to go anywhere... till the ends of the earth... Haa... lummm mou??

Angie accepts her Brad as he is... ;)

Har? You wanna feel tremors? Errr.. not so fun wan, you know... Haha, u not si bak la... some ppl are just not sensitive to tremors :) I too didn't feel anything during the tsunami...

Your @$$ too heavy??
Lemme check...

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Dear may,...
Thanks for your well wishes to Eve... *hugs*

Tremors in the heart can be controlled, maymay... c-a-n be c-o-n-t-r-o-l-l-e-d...
*hugs again*

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Dear winn,...
I don't know what to say to you... I'm overwhelmed by your long, thought provoking comments...

I think we just have to live life everyday as if it's the last day, you thinks?

DYK that your comment has revealed what a truly amazing person you are?
I feel like want to hug you but where are liu?? Amcorp Mall this weekend, liu?

ps: We ALL love you, winn...

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Dear pink cotton,...
I think everyone of us didn't think it was really some tremor... we might just be thinking it was some hallucination... :P

Drive home? Tiok bo... u so pannai find excuses to 'tuang' wan... :P

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Dear wennnn,...
Yes, life has to go on... with some difficulties...

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Dear misti,...
Waa... you also very deep... pain... why can't we live without pain? Why? Why? Whyyyy??

I'll be fine... thanks... why u so panic when you felt the tremor? What went on in your mind?

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Dear huei,...
Thanks... I hope so too :)

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Dear sengkor,...
U didn't feel it?? That's strange... u must be zzzz @ work, huh? :P

Thanks for your wishes to Eve... I hope she'll be well soon too...

If there are things you want to do today, don't wait till tomorrow, okay? ;) Come lah, hug hug?

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Dear vegemaster,...
It's not you lar... tremors were not felt in Penang.. Only in KL, Melaka & Johor & S'pore...

Thanks for the reminder... you know, I'm also a believer of that phrase... I very believe it...

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Dear ah monk,...
At least you know that you are 'sensitive' towards tremors hehe...

Yeah, my desktop ada all the shortcuts...

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Dear cp1,...
Thank you for the words of wisdom & the big hugs :)

I'm okay... just feel helpless when I think of it... so, will try not to think too much, but how can lah kan?

angel now become like nellie in warm blanket? hehe...
*muaks*

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Dear moz,...
Thank liu for all your prayers... who you pray to, har?

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Dear phom-lor,...
Of course there isn't any tremor there! If got, means damn teruk liao la...

To tag is to love... no wonder you no tag me...

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Dear nyonya,...
Thanks... I hope the steroids will help keep her well... sigh...

Hope you had a good one too!

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Dear jl,...
She's in NY... so, it's only thru emails or phone calls we communicate.. a bit inconvenient, hor? But thanks for your wishes...

I no menangis liao... :)

Thank you for your kind words... :)

Top 30 is an achievement ka??
*pengsan*
:P

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angel said...

Dear lokter,...
We always say dun give up, etc blah blah blah but sometimes when we are in a situation, it's difficult not to not give up... BUT... yeah... don't give up...

U didn't feel it because you all too far from the epicentre lar... :P Only KL, Melaka, Johor & Sg ppl felt it...

Anonymous said...

u know i m not into tags. i aint no commercial blogger...lol.

kid teung krunthep mak mak loeyyy! kern nii, pom ja pai party kap phuen khong pom. yak dern lao mak makk loey. (miss bkk a lotttt, tonite, i m goin to a party with my fren, wanna drown in whiskey/beer)

wa-lor

zewt said...

by staying in kota raya and pertama complex, they feel like home mah, it's like their territory already.

sorry to hear about your friend. but i remember my family doc used to have it and he needs to take medication. he has been alive since i was a very small kid. i guess medication nowadays can contain the condition.

Jo said...

So sorry to hear the bad news. Hope your friend will be already..

angel said...

Dear wa-lor,...
A commercial blogger is like... errmm... like those who blog for $$$... u see me do that?

Have fun @ the party! But don't follow the men home, yeah...

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Dear zewt,...
Their home is like that wan meh?

Yes, by taking good care & medication, the illness can be contained... but... but there's always a 'but'... But, I hope and pray that she'll stay positive... thanks :)

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Dear jo,...
I don't think anybody will be ready for these kind of situations... sigh..

BTW, I've been meaning to tell you, I have problems accessing your blog! I donno why.. it hangs all the time... sorries...

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mistipurple said...

i am very happy i found all of you as my friends. that is one thing i can say that will add on to my life being a little more valuable.

and ya, Winn wrote a very thought provoking comment. oso want to hug her! *hug with Angel*

dyk i am living now trying to 'clear' my 'rubbish in life', and like what Winn said, come with no debts, go back with so many things owing. haiz.

my thoughts when earthquake ah? hmm.. thinking ah yo, so giddy, wonder if building will drop, wonder if i should go change clothes and grab my important documents, silly hor? (i was at home)

kikare said...

Dear Angel,
Thanks to 'House, M.D', I know what lupus is. Serious stuff. Sometimes you just can't lie to yourself and say that 'everything will be ok' cos sometimes they don't. What can we do? Try to live life a little better while we can.

And I agree with you, Winn seems like an awesome gal, even though I don't know her personally. Her blog sometimes cracks me up and sometimes are simply touching.

Will said...

so sorry to hear what happened to your friend and cousin :(

wah your desktop very keng :P

angel said...

Dear misti,...
I am happy too that our paths have crossed... although you are there, and I am here, we know we are not so far apart...liu? Make sense liu?

winn can be melayang-layang... and she can be standing very firmly on the ground... don't we all love her... :)
*continues group hugging*

misti, don't say like that lah... that you are living to clear rubbish in life... it's not fair to you to say that... nope, nope...

*shakes head*
*refuses to see rubbish*
*only see the good...*

Pssst... if building comes down, u still got time to change mah??

*chants good thoughts for misti*

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Dear kikare,...
Lupus IS serious stuff... if it weren't for my cousin's death, I wouldn't have known its seriousness...

Hey, thanks for your words of wisdom...

winn I think is a gifted girl... :)

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Dear will,...
That's life, I suppose...

Why my desktop keng? Too many icons & folders? :P

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Anonymous said...

oh yeah, u r right hor. no, not commercial blogger..it shud be 'overly social blogger'. yeah.

saya-lor

King's wife said...

Sorry to hear about Eve. I can only wish her all the best and hope she will get well.

_butt said...

heys,

sorry to hear about Eve too. Hope she gets well and be strong enough to fight off the illness. positivity is important so have faith! :D

at least your desktop got space to 'breathe', PC don't even have one!! (I think) :P

angel said...

Dear saya-lor,...
No such thing as 'overly social blogger'. Find another term la, NM...

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Dear KW,...
Thanks... I hope she will get well soon too... sigh...

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Dear butty,...
Thanks.. yeah, being positive helps a lot but pretty difficult to be positive all the time, huh? *hugs*

My desktop can 'breathe' after I did some 'cleaning' LOL! :P

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narrowband said...

I was on the 6th floor when I felt the building sway. Tell me about it!

My desktop... I tell ya, I need to hide them icons. Why? Because they all won't fit into the screen anyway. So my Desktop is empty, only beautiful wallpaper. To access the files, I need to go to Windows Explorer.

angel said...

Dear narrowband,...
Hello there! Welcome!
*brings Red Carpet*

I was only on the 2nd floor when my chair 'trembled'... So, what went on in your mind when that happened?

Ah my desktop... I like convenience... don't like Explorer cos I think it's more cluttered than my Desktop! LOL!

narrowband said...

Aha, a red carpet isn't necessary :p

I didn't feel a strong vibration, nothing trembled. All I felt was kinda like a slow-motioned swaying of the building.

I thought the building wasn't meant to withstand such 'swaying'!

P/s: Please don't mind, I need to come back to ur site for more good stuff. Therefore, you're on my blogroll!

angel said...

Dear narrowband,...
Oh, it is necessary here :) Here, coffee? Tea...? Or....? :P

I think it was more of you feelin' giddy than the building swaying LOL!

You are too kind... This blog doesn't really have that good stuff, you know... BUT, you are welcome anytime ;)

ps: I'm a Geminian too :)

pps: And I see a Perfectionist in you ;)

narrowband said...

On your pps, how so? So quick to judge! ;p

angel said...

Dear narrowband,...
Haa... Of course! I could do that just by reading a few entries in your blog ;)