Just Notes

Ahhh!!! Slacked two days already. No can't do. I must be more diligent in writing.

So, what did I want to write about today? Two days ago, made a mental note to write about "Wednesday Movies".

So almost every Wednesday evening, we'd go for movies because Wednesdays' tickets are much cheaper compared to other days. Up to a point mom will automatically asked, "What movie are we watching today?" or "Any movie to watch today?"

Ever since working from home five years ago, I've been living with mom & dad. It's funny when I think of it. After working for 12 years, I quit full time to work from home. Why? Because I cannot tolerate "people stress" anymore. I really cannot. I surrender even though the $$$ was pretty good but I really tak boleh anymore. More so after being promoted to Middle Management, where you get torn in-between, literally speaking. So, I left.

Anyway, I wanted to say that during that 12 years working in the so-called "corporate world", I was on my own most of the time and 12 years later, I'm back with my parents, minus the sister who has sorta settled down in VN.

So, back to the topic, movie watching every Wednesday has become a routine for the 3 of us which I totally enjoy. I guess I can consider myself lucky to be able to spend so much time with them at "my" age.

Argh! I suddenly lost my train of thoughts. Never mind I guess, at least I wrote something today. That's all.

Oh, I was going through all the blogs listed here and found that many have either moved, closed, stopped writing, vanished and whatnot. But I'm amazed that some of the oldest "top bloggers" from those years are still writing constantly. Pui fook pui fook... 

Dream of the Deceased

About two weeks ago, I dreamed about two people who had passed on. Now, this is a first for me as I've not experienced this before. I dreamed about my late maternal grandma and grandpa. Grandpa just left us a few months ago on 21/4/2014. Grandma left us in October 2007.

What was my dream about? In my dream, I saw grandma and grandpa. The background was like very foggy (probably looking like heaven, I'd like to think of it that way! Or maybe it's in-between Earth and Heaven like my dad said, who knows?) but I knew where it was. It was at their home. Grandma was staring at me for the longest time and she smiled. She looked very much younger than what I remember her to be. Then, grandpa was somewhere beside there, didn't really get to 'see' him but I knew he was there. I was very surprised to see my grandma because I thought, hey, she's here but she's not here anymore, you know what I mean? Kind of complicated to describe what/how I felt. I was surprised, a bit shocked, excited and mesmerized at the same time. I tried to send a signal to my mom who was somewhere there also (I think) although I didn't really see her but dunno what she was doing, she no hiu me.

Don't know how long was the dream and that's it. End of my dream. I kept thinking about it for a couple of days because as I've said, it's a new experience for me, dreaming about someone who had passed on. Told mom & dad about it and then I decided to tell my cousins too and asked if they had a similar experience. To my surprise, one of my cousin said that she had the same dream a week earlier. Two other cousins have also dreamed about grandpa but not recently. Woah! Talk about coincidences.

A few days later, I decided to pay grandma & grandpa a visit at the columbarium. It was a quick visit as when we reached there, they were about to close for the day. Might visit again in October because grandma already left us for 7 years... 

I still kept thinking about my dream for a few days. One 'good' thing from this dream is, I feel happy and relieved because grandpa is now with grandma again, after 7 years. May they rest in peace...

Satu Bulan Lagi...

Tonight, I learnt once again that my family will be there for me and with me, through the good times and the bad times... I also must remember that whatever things that I have 'conjured' up in my mind might not necessary be how it'd turn out. I need to read The Secret. I need to have Positive & Good Thoughts. Like how Noddy would say, "I can! I can! I can!"

ps: Things always happen for a reason... If not for all these changes, I'd have stepped on the soil of the land Down Under today... One day baby... one day...

外婆, 一路顺风

I just exchanged a few Facebook messages with Sis, telling her that I feel sadder for our Mom because she lost her Mother... because one day, all of us will have to go through this...

Sighhhh... sometimes I have very morbid thoughts... when I was a lil' girl, probably around 5-6 years old, I began to understand the concept of death. There were some periods of time whereby I was so afraid of death, that I kept thinking about it, about how death is gonna feel like (and I used to cry myself to sleep because I couldn't bear the thought of me, dying...), about losing the people I love etc. and that caused me sleepless nights. Yes, I started having morbid thoughts since that young... but thank god I grew out of it... or did I?

Thanks for all the FB messages, SMS-es & phone call...